sometimes i wonder what would have made a difference, if anything
if salvage was something you had long since tucked away
a bone china plate snared in the jaws of a tempest
the sizzle of our silence splintering the glass-bottom bridge
tell it like it happened
how i held us like a crumbling basilica
but you kept your hands behind your back
my pleadings droning like background static you could not make sense of
i try myself into an infinite loop
some days i am still kneeling at the altar
some days it still hurts to be touched by fingertips
if my heart wasn’t bound by veins i wonder how high it would have flown for you
if my tongue wasn’t tethered by a frenum i wonder what i would have said to you
maybe if i had a second life i could have tried again
but just once, i want to be something that doesn’t wait
rain that falls before the clouds are full
stars that outshine the sun in broad daylight
let my last image of you be your silhouette morphing into an omega
see, people talk about regret all the time, about squandering
and taking things for granted
but what about the girl who loved, and knew it, and acted on it?
who cherished every second and never wanted to let go
she, who still ended up on the floor
what then?
“She who still ended up on the floor”…wow, this is knock me over powerful.
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Thank you Fleur! Means a lot x
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Feel this hard
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Glad you could relate xx
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Words to live by, what a simple and earth shattering take away!!! Thank you for your words
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Thank you so much Rupa! x
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Very beautiful words, though painful to read as someone who can honestly relate to them.
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Thank you very much. Glad you can relate – helps us feel a lot less alone! x
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The last strophe evokes so many feelings. This is so beautifully written.
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Thank you so much for this! x
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Gorgeous!!
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Thank you Tara! xx
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ah so good, so bittersweet
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Ahhhh, thank you Emily! x
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this is amazing !!
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Thank you! xx
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Beautiful 💕
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Aw, thank you so much! x
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