tiffany, do you still dream of numbers?
fluorescent digits, totalling like a cash register
your mind a mathematician’s notebook, your body an oblique asymptote
waking to find the equation still has not been solved
lily, I know what it’s like
to want to slice away parts of yourself like butter
breathe easier with every notch you tighten on that belt
it is only pretty to eat when you look like you don’t
i tell zoe bathroom scales aren’t meant to be one-way streets
but in this narrowed path she’s forced herself down
there’s not enough space for reason
there’s not enough space for her ribcage to make a 180
and now nicole’s body is so on edge
flesh skirting bones nervously, afraid to settle
nails brittle with stress at breaking point
sleeps at night with one finger down her throat
yesterday alison ate insecurity for breakfast, measured with instagram comments
for lunch, anxiousness; dinner, obsession
and for dessert (something bittersweet), nostalgia
hunger always has had a silver lining for her
somewhere, there is a little girl
sticky chocolate lipstick, marshmallow cheek implants
who eats a slice of cake, and
cries when her mother says she cannot have another
this is when she knows she has a body
knows image is a fancy word for ‘picture’
but doesn’t understand these words can fit together
and my god, how happy she is, how beautiful
Dear Melody
That made me cry.
If anorexia is a particular interest of yours, here is a reference to an excellent and passionate blog about the topic. It’s written by a survivor of the disease.
With very best wishes
Penny
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Thanks for this Penny! I wrote this because while not all of us have suffered from anorexia, I think it is safe to say that almost all of us have at some point been uncomfortable with our bodies for one reason or another, and I think it’s important to address that.
Also, thanks for the link – I believe I might actually have seen this blog before – it’s amazing, isn’t it?
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WOW. Amazing.
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Oh, thank you so much!!
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Brilliant!!! 🙂
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Thank you! This means a lot xx
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Excellent and beautifully done.
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Thank you!!
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Well done!!!
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Thank you Ellie! x
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this is so beautiful, as someone who has eating disorders i love this poem to the bottom of my heart
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Aw, it really means a lot to me that I was able to reach you with this poem – sending lots of love to you xx
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A sad truth and part of being woman in today’s society.
Blame it on objectivism, but more has to be done by women for the women in this fight.
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Thanks Fah, I couldn’t agree more! I feel it is almost impossible to live as a woman in society today without having body image issues. It really isn’t right!
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That was really beautiful and painful and sad and so well written I could feel and understand so much. I know someone who suffers too. I wish I could lift that burden. Such is life.
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Thanks Nthato! I know exactly what you mean – I’ve watched people go through this and it is terrible to watch
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Wow, this touched me.
I am so happy, that I left this dark time behind me!
If you feel lost and need some help, feel free to contact me ❤
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Thank you for your lovely offer. I cannot express how glad I am that you’re past that dark time now – may it never haunt you again xx
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Ditto … amazing.
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Thank you Angella! x
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Beautiful
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Thank you so much, Sarah! 🙂
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Truly inspirational.
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Thank you so much!
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“there’s not enough space for reason” just love that line, the Human Condition in a nutshell, haha!
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Oh, thank you so much for this! Glad you liked that line x
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This really touched me… Thank you
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Thank you Eliza, glad you enjoyed it x
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Love it! Sx 🙂
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Aw, thank you so much! 🙂
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This is so beautifully written that I feel overwhelmed. I loved how the overall poem really guided me till it culminated at ‘this is when she knows she has a body..’. Thank you for writing this!
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Aww, thank you Neha! This is such a sweet comment xx
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It was a pleasure reading it 🙂
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