Chrysalis

I wake up, but only out of habit,
In a body unfamiliar to yesterday’s goodnight kiss;
Brush a smile onto my face,
Swallow a cup of laugh tracks,
Slip punch lines into my pockets.

This is the calm before the storm,
The moment before the butterfly flutters its wings,
Before the doves are set free, before the dandelion seeds take flight;
When we have not yet grasped that existence is just another art to master-
We ask questions we know the answers to just to stall for time.

I call you my sister, but there is no blood linking us.
It must be, that we’ll do anything to make this world seem smaller-
Find mutual friends in every person we meet,
Leave out Jupiter when drawing the solar system;
There is too much time, there is not enough time.

Friend, we are flames trapped within water droplets.
Of course the first time you dreamt about the ocean, it was a nightmare.
There is still sand around your nails where polish should be,
Lipsticks spilling over Cupid’s bow,
Skirts that dismiss our hips and pool at our ankles.

I am afraid of the way my body fits into the air around me,
My palms weighing so heavy even when I am holding nothing.
This is a first for me, but not for him;
Afterwards, I sit for hours on the kitchen tile,
My tongue taking up too much space in my mouth,
Thinking about ex-boyfriends just to remind this body it was once loved.

At home, I tell my mother I am feeling lost.
“Child, of course you are.
It’s not like you’ve done it before,
This life thing-
Of course you’re still figuring it out.”

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44 thoughts on “Chrysalis

  1. Márcia Cave says:

    I love this! That last line,
    “Child, of course you are.
    It’s not like you’ve done it before,
    This life thing-
    Of course you’re still figuring it out.”
    Oh my goodness! I love that and I love the image of “we’re flames trapped within water droplets”

    You are so creative and such a wonderful writer. I always look forward to reading your work because I know I will feel what you write and see it all through new images and new comparisons and I really love that and appreciate the time you put into crafting such fantastic work.

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  2. pennygadd51 says:

    Dear Melody
    You’ve written another beautiful poem here. There are so many delights in it.
    “This is the calm before the storm,
    The moment before the butterfly flutters its wings,”
    Wow, what a juxtaposition of images, with the added bonus of referencing chaos theory!
    “Leave out Jupiter when drawing the solar system;” – what a terrific metaphor!
    “There is still sand around your nails where polish should be,” – how vividly that conjures up the little girl in the woman.
    “Skirts that dismiss our hips and pool at our ankles.” – so young that she doesn’t even have a womanly figure yet – just such a beautiful way of saying that!

    And your final stanza
    “At home, I tell my mother I am feeling lost.
    “Child, of course you are.
    It’s not like you’ve done it before,
    This life thing-
    Of course you’re still figuring it out.””

    That’s so tender, so loving, so true.

    Just in case you hadn’t noticed, I absolutely love this poem!

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    • Heartbeatingwings says:

      Thank you Penny! I’m so glad you picked up the chaos theory reference – wasn’t sure how many people would get that, to be honest. And with all those other lines – I can’t tell you how happy it makes me to realise that you understood my intentions so well! xx

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  3. sutlive2 says:

    Melody,
    I like your poem and the imagery is great.
    I used some of your metaphors and wrote something that to me is sending some of the same messages that you are in your poem. I am not posting this anywhere else. Thank you for sharing your work and feelings.
    Regards,
    Sam.

    The water droplets of men,
    Knowing their routines ensnare the flames within
    Forcing them in a smaller world of mutual friends they once knew.
    Feeling lost getting separated.
    We pretend.

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