Goodbye

And in the last moments, even with a dictionary in front of me,
My tongue still flails around, lost for words,
Because whatever I say, the words don’t quite taste right;
The letters don’t settle properly in the air,
And so I keep snatching them back before your ears can catch them,
Until all we can do is stare at each other in silence,
Everything we want to say tangled in our vocal cords.

Our remaining seconds drip through like the water in a leaky faucet.
I once told you I wished we could freeze time,
But now I realise that even if we had,
Clasping the ice in my palms would only make it melt faster,
And no matter how tightly I pressed my fingers together, water would ooze through anyway.
There are only so many times I can squeeze the life out of you with my hugs
Before I start to wonder if maybe I’m suffocating you.

I know you don’t know this, but that night, I released a piece of my heart into the sky,
So that, from now on, whenever you wake up to a scarlet-dyed sunrise
You might just be reminded of me,
Because it’s finally dawning on me that this is what goodbye truly means.
Forever isn’t supposed to come to an end, and yet here we are;
The last grain of sand is about to slip through the hourglass, join the rest.
I wish I could slip through and be with you that way,
But the neck is too thin, and maybe it’s for the best.
The pen is out of ink, the book is out of pages.
Did we write too much? Did we read too fast?

Please visit, even if it’s only in my dreams.

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53 thoughts on “Goodbye

  1. Silver Raven says:

    All my poetry goes for nothing in moments like those. Too many times I have not learned how to speak, and I carry still those unexpressed yearnings and losses.
    Perhaps in the end it comes down to “Ouch… Thank you… Sorry… Goodbye…” yet even that eludes me sometimes.
    Blessings on your sharing. I hear you.
    Thank you.

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    • Heartbeatingwings says:

      Thank you for your comment. Yes, it’s so difficult to say goodbye. I agree with you that any eloquence preserved from written poetry vanishes into thin air when I try to farewell someone. It must be due to our efforts to create a ‘perfect’ ending… but it’s a shame that we sometimes simply can’t express our feelings.
      I hope that you’ve forgiven yourself for the unexpressed yearnings and losses that you carry around.

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  2. fkregieblog says:

    brilliant post. we are told while young not to use two words – ever and never. as you mature you begin to experience and see the reason why you should never say or believe in forever. you should never say never because you haven’t lived tomorrow. same reason you should never say forever.

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